It’s that time of year to say what we are thankful for and I am no exception this year.
2013 has been quite a year. Good for many but very difficult for so many others. This year has been a tough one for me and my family. I have learned a lot about myself through reflection due to several major life changing events that turned my world upside down.
One of those events was that after 17 years (15 married); sadly my marriage has come to an end. It was not a conclusion that was entered into easily or without a heavy heart. It was an ending, years in the making, without even realizing the end result until it was upon me. The realness of something you put your whole heart into just ending is a tough reality for anyone.
Any person who has been in love will fully understand that this person becomes your world and you only want to make them happy. But as life goes on and people grow, you begin to learn more about yourself and what you believe in, not just what your parents or teachers taught you. You discover life and find that it changes you. You learn to be true to your heart and have confidence in what you believe and these are the keys to assisting you on your life path. When you know in your heart you have done all you can to make a relationship work, then all you can do is move forward.
Moving forward takes you out of your comfort zone and the life you have known for many years. It is not an easy decision or challenge to take on. It may likely be the most difficult thing you will ever do and the times that you have to make it on your own or spend that quiet time alone reflecting, can be very challenging. However, have no doubt that through it all, God and his angels will be right there with you. You will not be left alone at all!
As you go through this phase, surrounding yourself with good, positive people will help you to get through till you are ready to stand on your own and fully move forward.
Since our family is so far away, I have been blessed to have an amazing group of friends that I consider family and have been there- more than ever- the last year and I am soo grateful for them. Also, with the loss of my mother at too young an age, these friends have been so compassionate, loving, and understanding through all the pain and tears. I could not have asked for a better support group.
Thank you to all the loving people who truly take the time to understand what another person is going through and listen to another’s pain and sorrow. Thank you to those who do not judge or push, just listen. Those lovely people are the ones who will help you move forward but only when they know you are ready. They allow you to go at your own pace. I thank those wonderful people in my life for the support you have shown in whatever way God has led you.
I want to acknowledge some friends that have been more than I could have ever asked for and I thank you for choosing to be in my life at this time. I will never forget what you have done for me and my family. Thank you: Kiersten, Naa, Kari, Tiffany, Barbara (the most amazing angelic boss ever!), Monica O, Karen C., Emma, Jodee, Anabelle, the school staffs, my children’s friends who have been so understanding and nice to them, my family, and John’s family.
I also want to thank Caroline, Elijah, and Riley for being the most amazing children through such a tough change. Your world has been tossed upside down and being the amazing angels you are, you still have a spirit that is loving, enduring, and adaptable. I thank you for helping me (the adult) to get through some days. I LOVE YOU and am honored to be your mother.
Thank you to all of you angels reading this. Thank you for being in this life at this time. This world would not be the same without you. And thank you to the loved ones who have passed but still make your presence of love known- Love you mom.
The last thank you is for John. I thank you for these three amazing beautiful loving children. I thank you for growing with me. I thank you for the love. I thank you and appreciate you for sharing 17 years of this lifetime with me. Love, Janine
Much Love and Thanks to all.
Photo by: Gisela Giardino